only in my being

vortex of emotions

rise and fragment my being

into a million parts

splintering my thoughts

as they prance

around me in happiness,

in pain, in sorrow…

in tandem

with my body and my soul

two different entities now

away from each other drawn

as i cry in pain, torn,

in a bind to hold on

to breathe

and to let go;

eternal turmoil of mind,

faith, trust and heart…

heart wins over all;

time steps in

void in me it creates

rests on my shoulders

motionless, heavy

spiral of fear rising i feel

through my gut;

my heart turns away

pulsating, incomplete

dissolving hope;

defeat i concede

step back to encase

my soulmate

in my memory folds;

i turn as i feel

him as a part of

my being, entwined,

in my mind shackled,

in my thoughts enchained,

in my moments, in my soul,

my aura – my alter ego

in an eternal space

of the Giver;

but time is motionless

my body listless

mind in struggle

in a vortex of emotions

i concede defeat

only in my being

for time can’t shackle

my soul